Blue Skies and Sunshine
I’ve been in a daze for a while. For weeks, my head has been clouded over with thoughts that I have managed to conjure up from my imagination. Conjure up, and then, throught the power of suggestion, managed to think that it was true. Even though, from the start, reason and logic have been trying to break through; to remind me that I’m starting to tread on dangerous waters. I was setting myself up for disappointment by starting to believe in make-believe.
I’m probably not going to make sense to anyone who reads this. And I intend to keep the details to myself anyway. Let’s just say this is part of the purging process… my moving-on project.
It has been serious enough that I have started on include this in my daily devotion, that if it’s not meant to be, please God, let me have the strength to get over it. Such has it been that it had been starting to affect me, my work, my belief in myself. And finally, God did answer. Through the most random way ever.
I can breathe now. And even though the end is not what I hoped to be, it is what I need to know, to finally strip away that cloud from my brain. And it’s ok, I am happy with what is left. It may not be the whole that i was hoping for, but what remains, will suffice.
It feels good to see again. Clearly. Blue skies and sunshine. Life is good.
